US resident turned to rabbi with a particularly difficult question • "My heart calls for it, but I'm afraid Dad won't forgive me in life," he wrote. • What was the answer?
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We all hope that everyone has his or her one to close a circle with, but what to do if, when you finally find that one, it turns out she is not at all Jewish. This is the exact question that the respondent faced in the "dome" website.
"I live in the US and fell in love with a lovely 31-year-old girl," the anonymous questioner began his question. "She is my dream and I would marry her without blinking if she was only Jewish ..." It turns out that the questioner is Cohen and the girl he fell in love with - Christian, so That even if she converts, according to Halacha, they cannot marry as a priest is not allowed to carry a conversion. "I know it is forbidden and it is assimilation," the questioner continued. "But my heart calls for her, he cries for her, I love her very much and I want to marry her, but I am afraid of Father in heaven who will not forgive me for it in life, because I know that if I marry her, it means a church, and it means Jesus, and I cannot do such a thing. "
"It would be like turning my back on God," he wrote, "which I never imagined would happen to me. But he has to understand me: He sent her to my life, not me, and I really found her love for me. My soul loves her and no one else ... I know who my father is, who the real God who created this whole world is, but why did he send me my other half as a Christian figure? Why? I know people will tell me you will get over her and you will move on and forget about her and someone better will come in her place, but I do not want anyone better, I want her to be with her ... what a suffering it is, abnormal pain. He is merciful and nerdy, we all know it, will he forgive me for such a thing? Will I have atonement for such a sin? "
The writer asked the rabbi to try to get in his shoes. "You found one. She just came in a way you never dreamed of. She loves you to the bride's soul and you love her to the brides of the soul and beyond, but Father in Heaven looks at you and you know, just know, you let him down. My heart cries and breaks more and more with everything. A day I'm not with her. I have no idea what to do. Why send me the greatest love I've ever had in my life in this way? Why? "
Rabbi Danny Argaman, one of the kippah website's commentators, dropped him to the ground. "You are indeed in a very big attempt, and you have big questions, but on the other hand in a very clear way there is nothing to do with a Christian, certainly not to serve."
"The one who speaks out of you is the imagination that shakes you, and convinces you to feel that this is just the woman for you, and without it you have no taste for life, it's all imagination, even she was Jewish. There is a one-dimensional perception here that you have decided she is and no other. You are meant for you in the form of a Christian woman, it is not by name, just trapped in an imaginary trap that is very difficult for you to get out of. "
"You have to leave her beautiful one hour before," the rabbi added. "It's hard, but it's Yitzchak Ya'akov. Every man has some attempts. Leave her alone and look for a woman so good you won't understand what you found in this gentile."