Oise: "I was born to be a killer", the disturbing diary of Nicky's alleged murderer

The Assize Court of the Oise looked like an amphitheater for psychiatry lessons, this Thursday, in Beauvais.

With an inaugural lesson of the most arduous: Romain B., 27 years old, tried for the assassination of Nicky Regnault in Béthisy-Saint-Pierre in 2016, he yielded to this “too loud” voice which ordered him to kill to "resuscitate" his mother?

Or did the slaughter of the employee of the Parc Astérix obey, on the contrary, the accomplishment of a “homicidal impulse” which would have been forged over time?

In short, it is the question of the abolition or not of the discernment of the accused - and therefore of its accessibility to a criminal sanction - which is posed.

And there, the procession of experts who looked into the question does not agree on anything or almost.

“A community of psychiatrists far from being one-piece, euphemistically the Advocate General, Jean-Baptiste Bladier.

His mental illness, everyone agrees.

It is in the intensity of this that the points of view diverge.

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"He was in a delusional construction"

"He's a man out of psychological reality, where reincarnation was his reality," professes a first psychiatrist at the helm.

He was in a delusional construction which was built little by little and which he could not resist forever.

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"I fought a lot against that, but the voices were too strong, too central, too encrusted, entrusted Romain this Thursday, in the box of the accused.

It was an absolute necessity to bring my mother back.

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The reincarnation of the mother?

Some experts don't believe it.

“He never believed that his mother would come back,” says another psychiatrist.

He believed in it without believing it.

The night he kills Nicky, he doesn't even wait to see his mother come back to life, he runs away.

There is in him an omnipresent homicidal impulse which did not have for finality to make return his mother.

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"I was afraid of becoming dangerous"

On several occasions, Romain seems to regain his foothold in reality.

Like so many warning signs of an imminent passage to act.

Ten days before the assassination of Nicky Regnault, the young man confides in his relatives after having announced to them that he was preparing to leave for Strasbourg (Bas-Rhin), where he intended to find "an escape route".

To his sister who wonders, he will give "clues".

"Danger, danger for others," he blurted out.

I was afraid of becoming dangerous, mainly for my family, ”confirms Romain on Thursday.

"I came home and slit his throat"

The danger to come is also written in black and white in his diary, "the book of Romain", which was written a few months earlier.

“My brain, what's going on, he wondered one day.

I can't seem to figure out what's right or wrong, what's wrong or not.

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“I was born to be a killer,” he writes further.

The young man also identifies with Jeffrey Dahmer, an American serial killer who murdered 17 young men between 1978 and 1991. "He is me, I am him", writes Romain.

His last words will be written on October 22, 2016, from a hotel room in Compiègne, a few hours after killing Nicky, found naked, blindfolded and hands tied.

“Oh hell, it's done.

I came home and slit his throat.

The noise was awful, like a hum.

What the fuck do I do?

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