Nici Kutter had stood up to cancer.
The 19-year-old from Schliersee died two years ago.
Since then, his family has struggled through everyday life - with many problems.
Almost two years ago,
Nici Kutter lost
his battle with cancer.
Since then, his family has struggled with grief - and financial problems.
The family doesn't give up.
Schliersee
- His will to live was irrepressible.
Nicolas Kutter defeated cancer six times and the disease returned six times.
Always by Nici's side: his mom Solveig.
He died in her arms almost two years ago.
He was only 19 years old then.
To this day, his mother fights to live the legacy of her son herself: never giving up, always looking ahead positively.
She is faced with a Herculean task.
In addition to the grief, her family also has to
cope with
the
emotional and financial consequences of the cancer drama
.
Solveig Kutter Hartz IV recently had to apply for it.
Their marriage broke up and she lives with her three sons Emilio (8), Antonio (11) and Leonardo (17) in a house on Schliersee in the Miesbach district.
She has lost her job - and trying to find a new one is almost hopeless in times of Corona.
Especially since the 46-year-old is only flexible to a limited extent as a single parent.
“I would like to work part-time, preferably an office job as an assistant, but I am not too good for any other work.
And no way to work would be too far for me, ”says the business economist.
19-year-old dies of cancer: mother gets into financial difficulties
In order to make ends meet financially, she borrowed money from friends.
“But at some point that will be used up, and I
really want
to repay the loan as soon as possible.” If the job center
approves
her
Hartz IV application
, she receives a standard monthly rate of 446 euros.
For children who live with them, parents receive up to 357 euros, graduated according to age.
The authorities credit child benefit.
Any maintenance payments are the responsibility of the lawyers.
Solveig Kutter would be happy about the support, she feels no shame.
“I believe that everything will be fine again.” She wastes no energy struggling with her fate: “Resigning now is out of the question for me.
I have wonderful children who need me.
And Nici would be disappointed in me if I gave up.
He always said: 'Mom, I inherited your strength.'
I want to show him that I fight for our family.
I firmly believe that he is always with us. "
The closeness to Nici after his death is important for the Kutters.
"It's about creating a new place for a deceased child," says social worker Ulla Baier-Schröder, who accompanies the Kutter family.
"It is important to internalize the child's life story and recognize what they have achieved in their life."
Nici has achieved something almost superhuman.
He endured the most brutal pain, put up with many setbacks and did not let the devastating prognoses discourage him - even when his chances of survival sank to a minimum.
"I don't care about probabilities," Nici once said in an interview with our newspaper.
"If the probability of a cure is one percent, then that means only one thing for me: that I have a chance - and I will take advantage of it."
We have put up pictures of Nici in our house.
I say good morning and good night to him every day.
Solveig Kutter, Nici's mother
In doing so, Nici thought not only of himself, but also of many fellow sufferers.
“He wanted to become a doctor, to help others, to find something against leukemia,” says his mom.
Research fascinated him.
He described his experimental therapy with Car-T cells as “my personal Mars mission”.
Fight against leukemia: There are now advances in cancer therapy
Nici spent the last four months before his death in a children's hospital in the USA, where he received the promising treatment as part of clinical studies that had previously saved his life.
The second attempt failed.
But in the meantime the scientists have made great strides in the further development of the therapy.
"Nici wanted to help other children survive" - beyond her own death.
While still alive, he
bequeathed
his
brain to
Seattle Children's
for research purposes
.
His body was cremated and the urn is with family friends in the United States.
"Nici wanted it that way," says his mom, "we respect his wish."
But in their hearts, loved ones took him to Germany with them.
“We have put up pictures of him in our house.
I say good morning and good night to him every day. ”
Solveig Kutter also thinks a lot of her eldest son
when looking at
Schliersee's local mountains
.
He has often been on skis on the Rosskopf or on foot on the Brecherspitze.
As well as his illness would allow, even if he wasn't doing so well - because he really wanted to.
Faith can move mountains, they say.
Seen in this way, Nici could have lifted the entire Mangfall Mountains off its hinges.
