Laura Fernández recalls meeting with Martin Amis, who died on Saturday at 73. She says Amis's need to collect oneself, to share oneself, is intimately related to Richard Tull's words.

Amis was, like every great writer, the only soldier in a lost battle against himself, she says. The writer missed his cousin Lucy Partington so much that he used to look at her photograph when he wrote of her that she was "where we really are when we die"