49 years after the murder of her husband, the police commissioner Luigi Calabresi,
Gemma Capra returns to talk about those terrible moments
and does so in an interview with her son, the former director of Repubblica Mario, in which she also talks about her " journey of faith "towards forgiveness for the murderers. "I absolutely do not hate them - he says -. Maybe among them there are those who are more difficult for me to accept because perhaps they have an 'unpleasant' attitude and there are those who have asked for forgiveness, but also, on their part there has been a journey. However, it is clear that those responsible are not only those of the commando that morning, there are behind many people who knew and who did nothing ".
"Every May 17th at a quarter past nine, I look at the time and say 'here, now'", are the first words of the widow Calabresi in the podcast "Other stories" by Chora Media. "Now he goes out of the house, now they kill him. I think I have never skipped even a year, to stand there waiting for that moment. And for the rest, yes, I distanced myself because I am convinced that memory is very important but memory is not static - he emphasizes -
Memory has legs, it has to walk and therefore we must make it live in the present by remembering its humor, its jokes.
Because he was really a Roman full of life. And his examples, his testimonies, his passions. Here, this is the memory brought into everyday life. But without staying still on that day, or on what they did to us because otherwise you won't get out of it ".
During the interview, the woman remembers her journey of faith, born from the reflections with her students when she taught religion, but also comments on the arrests of 7 former Red terrorists, defining the news as "a bolt from the blue, something I did not expect. more". "There are many feelings - he reveals -. First of all a clear and strong sign of justice and also of democracy. Of course, it would have had another meaning for our family if it had happened twenty years ago. However, I think that, from a historical point of view, what happened is really fundamental ".
The podcast also talks about the
affection and solidarity received in the days following the Calabresi murder.
"It helped me to live this," he recalls. And then respect in the judiciary, trust in the state. "We had a sentence of all these that was negative and we accepted it - he concludes -. Then everyone thinks about what they want, at home maybe you vent your opinion but respect the judiciary. Otherwise there is nothing more sure, there is nothing left, where is the state going? I am happy to have given you these certainties too, these certainties. Of course it is an organ made by men, you can be wrong ".
Finally, summing up a life in any case marked by such a tragic event,
Gemma Capra admits that it was "a heavy life" but - she explains - "do you know that I would not change it?". "Because it has been an intense life, rich and full of affection, of love, of people who love me
. Eh, if I look at others, no, I wouldn't change - the podcast concludes -. Sometimes I feel a little bit 'of anger when I see the elderly still together holding hands, then there I have a moment of weakness, but it's good like this, it's beautiful like this. My life has been beautiful anyway ".