There are relationships that traumatize you for life.
Wednesday February 8, Lily Collins confided that she was caught in one of them and that she was still not completely cured today.
At the microphone of the podcast "We Can Do Hard Things", hosted by Glennon Doyle, the 33-year-old actress recalled some painful memories.
Memories lived during her twenties with a former companion, whose name she preferred to keep silent.
A romantic relationship that she described as "toxic", marked by "verbal abuse" and "emotional".
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"He called me 'little Lily', said horrible words to me about my outfits.
Sometimes he even called me a bitch, ”she said.
“Awful” words and “disparaging” behavior that fueled a feeling of “panic” and “anxiety” in the young woman.
“I felt like I had to make myself very small to feel safe,” she added.
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The actress is now married to Charlie McDowell – they said yes in September 2021 in Colorado -, the latter still has consequences.
“This panic can still be triggered.
Even though I'm in the healthiest relationship, there can be a moment that happens throughout the day when the story just comes back like this, she continued.
It's like a millisecond, or less than a millisecond, and your gut reacts, your heart starts beating, and all of a sudden you're taken back to that moment when they told you this thing 10 years ago , even if you're not in that situation right now, it's just the trigger and it's very hard.
It's horrible."
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In 2017, the star also revealed that she had suffered from eating disorders for a long time.
The star of
To the Bone
had thus recognized herself in the character she embodied on the screen, a victim of these same disorders.
"
It was definitely a role for me," she told
ET
Online
at the time , calling the experience liberating.
