From the many lives of Jennifer Lopez, Amazon Prime has decided to look into her love journey.
In
This is me... now: a love story
, broadcast from February 27, the actress and singer looks back on her different conquests: P. Diddy with whom she was in a relationship from 1999 to 2001, Ben Affleck obviously or even Marc Anthony to whom she was married for ten years.
She also revealed for the first time that she had been “manhandled” by one of her former companions whose name she kept silent.
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The first part of the documentary highlights her relationship with Ben Affleck, with whom she first had a highly publicized relationship in the 2000s, before a breakup then a reunion in 2021, for a marriage a few months later.
Asked subsequently about her desire to answer more intimate questions, in particular about the violence she suffered, the singer opens up: “I have never had a relationship where I was beaten, thank God, but I was certainly mishandled and subjected to other unsavory... brutal... disrespectful things.”
Before adding: “There have been people in my life who told me “I love you”, but who did not do what corresponded to the word “love” (...) You have to touch basically, finding yourself in situations so uncomfortable and so painful that you end up saying to yourself: “I don’t want this anymore”.”
Situations which, she says, led her to consult: “A therapist said to me: 'What if it was your daughter?
What would you do ?"
And it was so clear.
I would tell him: “Get out of here, never look back”.
But for me, it was so tangled and so complicated with my past, my own pain, my hurts and my dysfunctions, that I couldn't see clearly.
It was like looking through the fog.”
In the next scene, Jennifer Lopez is at home calling her longtime friend and producing partner, Elaine Goldsmith-Thomas.
She tells him of the emotional burden that this documentary project, especially the part where she reveals the violence she suffered, places on her: “More than anything, it is a situation of vulnerability in which we find ourselves every day ", she declares, before being answered with an observation: "It's a personal journey [...] which is aimed at so many women victims of abuse [...].
You talk about how we accept less than we deserve.
Evils that belong to the past for the one who enjoys a more-than-perfect marriage with Ben Affleck.
Definitely “out of reach”…