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Written by: Cheng Xue
2019-12-05 08:00
Last updated: 2019-12-05 08:00What happened more than a month ago? How serious is the situation? On the day of National Day, the northern bank of Shenzhen River is a red sea, and the streets filled with five-star red flags are filled with a strong National Day atmosphere. In Hong Kong, on the southern bank of the Shenzhen River, after the "No National Day, Only National Day" parade launched by the Popular Front received a notice of opposition from the police, some people voluntarily launched a multi-regional parade on National Day. The scene clashed with the police who were waiting for the battle. out of control. During the protest, a demonstrator was hit by live ammunition by riot police. This was the first live ammunition in the anti-revision case.
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At the same time, on the campus of the Chinese University of Hong Kong, a mainland girl hung a national flag outside her bedroom window and was harassed and intimidated by local classmates on campus during the next 28 hours. In her WeChat public account, she wrote: "Someone shot with a laser pointer outside the window", "Crowds gather at the door of the dormitory, and weird bursts from time to time, use Cantonese to personally threaten us, abuse and attack", "Crowd at the door" Using high-power audio accompaniment, sing the anti-revision sports theme song "Glory to Hong Kong" twice. The singing process is accompanied by continuous door knocking, and the door panel is slightly swaying ....
Lin Ting said: Actually, when I saw the national flag before, I also felt patriotic feelings and felt tears in my eyes. (Profile picture / Photo by Ou Jiale)
On this matter, Lin Ting and Cindy have very different views. Lin Ting believes: "During the National Day, on the campus of Hong Kong, in such a situation at this time, doing such things would cause resentment among Hong Kong students." Cindy said: "I admire her because I am definitely afraid At the same time, they all think that the act of flying the national flag is not bad in nature, and the girls in the Mainland were attacked because the national flag as a symbol, and the authority symbolized behind it would anger the Hong Kong demonstrators who collided with it. .
"Actually, when I saw the national flag, I also felt patriotism, and I felt tears in my eyes." Lin Ting smiled wryly.
When the Umbrella Movement broke out in 2014, she had just graduated from high school, raised her head from a pile of heavy books for the first time, and began to look at the world.
"At the time I was watching the Umbrella Movement report on CCTV News. I felt that the living conditions in Hong Kong were so good, the state gave them good policies, and the economy also gave them support. Why did they have to become independent? I also told my mother that I "I will never go to Hong Kong in this life, and I will never contribute a little GDP to Hong Kong." She said, paused, and added, "I was particularly stupid at the time."
Until 2018, Lin Ting's perception of Hong Kong remained in narratives such as "The relationship with the Mainland is mother and child". What she did not expect was that her life would change dramatically after her chance came to Hong Kong.
The picture shows the first anniversary of the umbrella movement. (Profile picture / Photo by Zeng Ziyang)
After finishing college in Beijing, Lin Ting, who was not ready for employment, decided to apply for a master's degree from a Hong Kong institution. She gave up her original business major and chose to study social science. Social science courses involve the study of Chinese Mainland and Hong Kong society, including history, geography, economy, culture and many other aspects.
In the classroom, Lin Ting found that the history and social status taught by her teacher were very different from her past knowledge, which puzzled her: What is the truth? Is the belief in the past truly unbreakable? With doubt, Lin Ting plunged into the ocean of information, overthrowing and rebuilding in a loud noise. She learned that Hong Kong society was more panicked than expected when faced with the reunification of 1997, that the demands of the Umbrella Revolution were "true universal suffrage" rather than independence, what the "June 4th" commemorated by Hong Kong people over the past 30 years, and Hong Kong How the tear with the mainland was shaped by the media ... "It was this process that trained my ability to think, and also made me really walk into Hong Kong."
The most dramatic change occurred on June 9 this year. Lin Ting used "subversion" to describe the shock that day brought to her. "The government implements the fugitive ordinance. They believe that it is unjust to stand up and march on the street. Everyone works for a common goal. They have this right and this will. This gives me the vitality of Hong Kong as a city. New understanding."
On June 16, Lin Ting took to the streets and shouted with the demonstrators: "Hong Kong people, come on", "no thugs, only tyranny", "withdraw the sent-in regulations and release the arrested righteous." Walking in the middle of the crowd, she became more and more aware of her common aspirations and goals with those around her, felt that people could "connect" for the same ideal, felt that she could shout loudly in the face of injustice to avoid fear. Freedom, feel that I am also a member of this society.
On June 16, Lin Ting took to the streets and shouted slogans with the protesters. At this moment, she felt that she was also a member of this society. (Profile picture / Zeng Ziyang)
"I will even cry." Lin Ting lowered her head, a little shy. "I was alone at home at night, thinking that my favorite city might become no different from ordinary mainland cities, and I would cry. I think this is also taking to the streets Of Hong Kong people. "
The link here means a break in another place.
Lin Ting, who is still staying in the Hong Kong drift circle in her daily communication, often maintains a depressed silence because her ideas are different from others. Colleagues have condemned the "waste youth" for messing up Hong Kong or mocking the stupid ignorance of Hong Kong people; these remarks have stifled Lin Ting. "I can't understand their thoughts and feel that they are not the same kind of people."
Faced with her old friends in the Mainland, she also felt that she was drifting away. Opening WeChat and Weibo, friends forwarded the small flag one after another, and the state of being a "flag guard" always made her give up the exchange with disappointment. "As far as our common growth experience is concerned, my friend and I are" we ", but conceptually, we can no longer be called" us ". It is torn here."
Thinking of her hometown, Lin Ting misses the tenderness and care given to her by the small northern city. So far, she thinks that only that land can provide her with security and belonging. "But if I go back now, I definitely think I can't get used to it."
"Grinding", Lin Ting described his life in Hong Kong like this. "I'm afraid I won't be able to return home. Therefore, I dare not speak out and participate in activities; therefore, I dare not speak frankly about my views and observations in front of the mainland people. Stop it. "With a sigh, she smiled and said," I feel very lonely all the time. "
Recently, private incidents often occur. (Photo / Photo by Yu Junliang)
Cindy, who is also accustomed to keeping silent, has had a completely different experience from Lin Ting since the anti-revision storm. In her opinion, the silence born in the Mainland is a kind of "forced helplessness."
As early as July of this year, Cindy's friends had expressed their views on the event on Facebook, and their positions were bluer. In Cindy's view, the friend's speech was not inappropriate and her words were not radical, but she was tragically "bottomed" and cyber bullied, and even her close friends were affected.
"In this case, it's hard to have the courage to speak again." Cindy's green face was full of disappointment.
As a young child, Cindy has traveled to Hong Kong with his family many times. In her memory, Hong Kong at that time was "very prosperous, many people, and everyone was in a hurry" and "few mainland cities could match it." However, this impression did not last long. With the decline of TVB and the rise of the cultural industry in the Mainland, Cindy gradually felt that Hong Kong is no longer as "fantastic and colorful" and full of charm as in the past. This pearl of the Orient is fading.
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The above excerpt is from the 191th issue of "Hong Kong 01" Weekly (December 2, 2019) "Wandering in Perplexity and Silence in the Mainland".
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