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Fear has many faces
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Sometimes I am afraid of going crazy.
Or to be already.
My family already knows that, they like to make fun of it, sometimes it annoys them, but they also respect it: I have moments of complete absence, I have internal conversations with real or fictional people, meet the deceased, the lost, the missing , end unsolved conflicts or unsolved conversations, invent myself in fantasies as a hero, victim, perpetrator, relive stories and people I admire or overcome old fears - of not being loved or abandoned.
Markus Deggerich
, 51, is the patchwork dad of five children between the ages of 2 and 17.
He works part-time, hopes for a career in the kitchen and watches in amazement as his children and the best woman in the world answer life's big and small questions for him.
I haven't shared this for a long time, these fantasies and fears, because I tend to deal with myself.
Above all, the fears, the feeling of not being enough: Be a man, a Leo, a father.
And then the fear that an illness will catch up with me and that I will have to leave earlier than I want.
The fear that a child could walk before me or that I will have to release the children into an uncertain, threatening future.
The fear that the best woman in the world will leave me.
The fear that ... the fear is not fear, but an excuse.
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