When he picks up his phone, Samir leaves the doctor's office.
A routine for more than two years for this 46-year-old man, living in Seine-Saint-Denis, former employee of the Ibis hotel in the rue de Trévise, and who takes three drugs a day "to live".
Since the explosion that killed four people and injured dozens of others on January 12, 2019 in the 9th arrondissement of Paris, everything has changed.
"I'm all alone, I feel lost, my wife can't stand me anymore, there is a wall with my children, I can't cuddle them anymore, I wanted to kill myself" he explains , with the rapid flow of those who are afraid that they will not be listened to to the end, or for fear that the emotion will overwhelm them.
For Samir, it's both.
He begins to sob like a child.
"I lost my job, my family, my friends"
By recovering, he describes a daily life where happiness has disappeared.
His psychologist has just given him a certificate stating a "state of major post-traumatic stress" and supports his request to move to housing without gas, the improvement of his mental state depends on it.
Samir can no longer use the gas stove, only uses the microwave to heat his children's dishes, and talks about his life before January 12, 2019.
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“I want to come back to Treviso as before, I lost my job, my family, my friends,” explains the man who rescued colleagues on the day of the explosion.
He explains that he is still on sick leave and that his household - his wife also works - has half the resources than before: "€ 18,000 in income in 2020 against 38,000 in 2018."
"We have been walking around for two years"
"The psychological and physical state of hotel employees who have been seriously injured has deteriorated further in recent weeks and the contempt with which this matter is being handled increases their anxiety," accuses Linda Zaourar, director of the Ibis Style and Mercure hotels of rue de Trévise and president of La Vret: “The situation is worse than after the explosion. Inès has just been operated on again. Surgeons told Angela it would have been better to amputate her because she will not be able to use her leg again. Amor has to undergo a new operation but he will not recover his arm or his hand because the carotid artery has been affected. After having worked for 20 years at Accor, Ameroch is considered unfit for work. He receives a quarterly pension of 270 euros in addition to unemployment. And he is still not compensated.The surgeons will operate again to place a new abdominal plate. All of these people have seen their lives change overnight and find themselves facing financial problems. We urgently need to compensate them. A meeting on this subject is scheduled for Thursday at the Ministry of Justice ... but without the victims.
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"I would prefer not to be there any more than to experience this"
Linda Zaourar's observation is shared by the Trévise Ensemble association, which brings together the victims.
“We still live in furnished apartments, without our belongings.
Our life changed in a fraction of a second, ”recalls Dominique Paris, the president of the association.
Three buildings remain uninhabitable to this day.
"It has been two years that the victims and the wounded wait to be compensated and that we walk," she storms.
She fears that the work scheduled for September at 6 rue Trévise and in the two neighboring buildings (4 rue Trévise and 13, rue Sainte-Cécile) will also be delayed.
The Paris Aide aux Victimes association, mandated by the Paris prosecutor's office since the first day of the disaster, conducted nearly 2,000 interviews with 321 victims, for legal, psychological or listening questions.
