Elke Heidenreich didn't want to be a dear mother.
As a child, she was a "defiant head", said the literary critic on Friday at the Frankfurt Book Fair.
In the book of the same name, however, she did not find herself again: ““ Defiant head ”becomes well-behaved at some point, gets married, has children.
And if you are not good, you will not be a dear mother.
Frankfurt / Main - I didn't want to be a dear mother, I wanted to have a life of my own. "
Later she looked for other “life books”, said Heidenreich (“This way it goes! With books by women through life”) on the “Blue Sofa”.
The writer Christa Wolf (“Childhood Pattern”) helped her to understand the difficult relationship with her mother.
With “No place nowhere” she understood: “What I'm looking for, perfect happiness, doesn't exist.
I have to do it myself. ”Virigina Woolf (“ A room to yourself ”) has encouraged her to“ always have my own money, my own room ”.
Susan Sontag ("Illness as a Metaphor") helped her to accept cancer.
“You haven't done anything wrong when you get that, it's not a value judgment.
That comforts you. ”Dpa