More than two decades after she managed to extricate herself from an abusive couple relationship, former beauty queen Mirit Greenberg bravely reveals her past horror.
"All the violence videos that went on the net shook me a little, so I decided to share with you a personal story that is very difficult for me," Greenberg (42) opened last night (Monday) the shaky and exposed post she posted on her Instagram.
"Living with a violent man, verbally, physically and sexually, who makes you think you are a 'mistake' that needs to be corrected. He taught you, learned where it is easy to hit and then in those moments your easy target. The scary look, the eyes that freeze you, the obsessive jealousy and distance from anyone close to you , Even from the parents.
"I was 19. I lived in fear of what was going to come, a crippling fear. Remember the desire to be loved, far from my family. Remember how I fell asleep in the car after a fight and woke up in the middle of the night terrified. What? He left me outside and went to bed?
"Remembering how he dumped me in the middle of a main road and driving, remembering the evil, scary look that says 'calm down before ...', and remembering the contempt. 'My previous girlfriend really loved me, she swallowed my semen, you do not love me enough.' I'm a girl, I do not know such things, I feel pressure, disgust rises in my throat. I have an army the next day, he ran away with my uniform, I do not stop crying, fear paralyzing again. There is no one to help, a feeling of helplessness I am in Tel Aviv alone.
"Rabbeinu. I fell asleep crying on the couch. I woke up with him tugging at my hair tightly. In the evening, when he aggressively took off my panties, even though I told him no and forced myself I realized I was running away from him. I came to give weight. For years just seeing him or knowing he was around me I would start shaking with fear. More than twenty years have passed, "wrote Greenberg, who is now happily married and a mother of four.
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"This is the first time I dare to tell what I went through, but maybe if I had told at the time my parents would intervene, take me away. Of course the self-destruction is no different to come and the desire to forget. Today as a mother of adolescent children I try to keep an open conversation with them. For everything, you never judge and they share me.
"It's hard for me to explain how important it is to me that they feel so comfortable with me, that they know that Mom will accept them for all the mistakes they can make and surely more will make," she wrote, adding an excited appeal at the end: Feels you just need someone to reach out to you - call 6724 * You're not alone.
At first Greenberg preferred to block the post for comments because of its loaded and sensitive content, but when she realized the storm it had caused he opened it to comments and those were not long in coming.
"You are amazing and a heroine and a wonderful mother," many surfers wrote to her.
"Thank you for sharing. Embracing you and your courage," others reinforced.
"If I could help one person, then the courage was worth it," Greenberg concluded.
