A year ago, Anna* realized that she was dreading having children.
During a "
holotropic course
", where she learned to breathe until hyperventilation and "
entering an altered stage of consciousness
".
"
It's like taking LSD
," she sums up, laughing.
“
It allows you to relive past repressed emotions.
Mine dated from my childhood.
She then realizes that she has not “
developed enough firewalls
.
To avoid… conveying the raw anger, the raw sadness that my dad left us
.”
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The first years of Anna's life were spent in the family building, avenue Georges V, in Paris.
From the apartment, we could see the Pantheon: “
it was amazing
”.
If the setting is chic, the atmosphere is gloomy.
One of their uncles, a schizophrenic, watches them, his brother, his sister and her, in the entrance hall to bark at them when they come home from school.
In the apartment, it's more cheerful but barely, shh, their mother often asks, dad is sleeping.
Fortunately, there remains school, the “
breathing
” of this shy, round-faced woman and the brownies, the scouts, where she laughs “
like a whale.
»
In adolescence, the painful memories of these years will manifest themselves in the form of "
bad periods
", during which she will feel "
leaded
", sad.
The ecosystem
Anna has always known her father, Étienne*, a tall skinny man with glasses, passionate about Napoleon, depressed.
“
He often spent the days in the dark, in bed, because of his migraines.
He didn't dine...
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