5 sentences from Amber Heard's first testimony in Johnny Depp's defamation trial

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(CNN) --

Amber Heard took the stand in her defense this week in a $50 million defamation lawsuit brought by her ex-husband, Johnny Depp.

Depp sued Heard for $50 million over a 2018 opinion piece he wrote for The Washington Post in which he described himself as a "public figure representing domestic abuse."

Although Depp was not named in the article, the actor claims that he cost him lucrative jobs.

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Heard's testimony came 14 days into the trial, after weeks in which jurors have heard testimony about the explosive relationship between the actors, including Depp himself, who stated for several days that he had never beat up a woman in his life and accused Heard of mistreatment.

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These are 5 sentences from Amber Heard's initial testimony

During her testimony, Heard discussed her relationship with Depp, how they began seeing each other romantically in 2011 when they would spend days in a "bubble" listening to music, reading together, but then, she said, he would disappear.

"I'm having a hard time finding the words to describe how painful this is. It's horrible for me to sit here for weeks and relive everything,

" Heard said at the start of her testimony.

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"When I was around Johnny, I felt like he was the most beautiful person in the world. He made me feel like I was worth a million dollars,"

she said of the start of their relationship.

Heard said she believed Depp was using cocaine, that there was an old bottle of cocaine nearby and that they were sitting on a couch together when she asked him about a tattoo on his arm and he told her it said "Wino."

"I laughed because I thought he was kidding. And he slapped me,

" Heard said.

The actress said she laughed because "she didn't know what else to do" she said she thought it was a joke and she didn't know what was going on.

"I just looked at it."

"I knew it was wrong and I knew I had to leave him. And that's what broke my heart. Because I didn't want to leave him

," Heard said after talking about the actor's alleged abuse against her.

"He was the love of my life. But he was also this other thing. And the other thing was something horrible."

During her hearing, Heard recounted that after beating her, Depp knelt down, cried and apologized, saying, "I thought I pushed the monster away."

It was unclear what year the alleged incident occurred.

She said that she left shortly after the incident and that she received text messages from Depp apologizing profusely saying "I'd rather cut off my hand than put it on you" and that he understood that she could never forgive him.

Heard said they reconciled shortly after the incident and that he promised her he would never hit her again.

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Heard accuses Depp of violence;

he denies it

The actress said the relationship continued to escalate into violence that she believed was due to Depp's drinking.

Heard testified that Depp pushed her, punched her, shoved her and that the fights quickly escalated.

In Depp's testimony, the actor denied ever hitting a woman in his life.

Heard also detailed an incident in 2013 in which she says Depp performed a "cavity search" on her against her will.

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Heard testifies about Depp's alleged beatings 0:51

Heard testified Wednesday that she and Depp were with friends getting high at a party in a desert lodging area made up of several trailers, and that when she and Depp returned to their room, Depp began breaking things inside her trailer.

He accused her of hiding the cocaine from her, Heard testified, and began ripping her dress and underwear off her.

"He was saying to me, 'Let's do a cavity search, okay?'

He put his fingers inside me," Heard testified.

A forensic psychologist hired by Heard's legal team previously testified that she determined Heard had been subjected to sexual violence by Depp.

Depp has previously denied all allegations against him.

Heard described the ups and downs of her relationship with Depp, with periods of calm when the actor was sober.

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