(ANSA) - NEW YORK, MARCH 21 - Amanda Knox also thought of committing suicide during the period she spent in prison, in Perugia, for the murder of Meredith Kercher for which she was later acquitted.
She told about it on The Free Press, she talks about herself in a long article entitled 'The Life I Refused to Surrender'.
"I've imagined all the ways I could do it," she said.
"Another prisoner - he added - had tried to break a plastic pen and swallow the fragments. There is always bleach to drink. I wondered how I could get it and how much I should drink. I imagined myself vanishing in the shower, with my wrists cut and the water that slowly took away my life".
"The abyss never goes away. It is always there and all those who have seen it like me know the strange sense of comfort of carrying it with you," revealed Amanda Knox.
"When I was sentenced for murder to 26 years in prison - she continued - I had my first epiphany. I didn't know what an epiphany should be like but it was cold".
And it was precisely that illumination that gave her "calm" at the time and after her conviction, Knox writes.
"I was calm because I was with my epiphany, meaning I wasn't waiting for my life to be handed back to me - she wrote again - and I wasn't a lost tourist waiting to go home. I was a prisoner and the prison was my home".
Amanda Knox then recounts the difficulties encountered also to make her mother understand her enlightenment.
"I tried to explain it to my mother - she revealed - but she didn't want to hear.
She thought I was depressed, she didn't accept that this would be my life. She wanted to save me and she needed me to survive up to that moment. I told her I would, that I would survive."
Knox then recounts how in prison he began "imagining alternate realities" - "if I had been in the house instead of Meredith, would Rudy Guede have killed me?"
- but also to the hypothesis of committing suicide.
The article is accompanied by two photos, one of Knox with the police and another of her, posted in 2022 on Twitter, which portrays her smiling instead.