Kim Kardashian, on motherhood: "It's the hardest thing I've ever done, there are nights I go to bed crying"

The rich also cry. In the case of Kim Kardashian (Los Angeles, 42 years old), and thanks to the reality show she has starred in for years with her mother and sisters, The Kardashians, we have checked it a few times (her face when crying has even become a meme). Now, the billionaire businesswoman has acknowledged in a podcast that there are nights she goes to bed crying. The reason is much closer than it might seem at first glance, since the reason behind her tears is how hard parenting and motherhood can be.

This has been told in the advance of the next episode of the podcast On Purpose with Jay Shetty, presented by the wellness guru and author of the best-selling book Think Like a Monk, Jay Shetty. In the episode, Kim Kardashian opened up about raising the four children — North, 9; Saint, 7; Chicago, 5; and 4-year-old Psalm—which she shares with her ex-husband, rapper Kanye West, after Shetty asked her how she feels motherhood is now, versus what she imagined she was like when she hadn't been a mother yet: "Everyone says that the days seem very long, but the years get shorter... That's totally true."

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"When you're inside, especially when they're babies and you're feeding them ... It's all crazy. It's complete chaos," Kardashian explains. The influencer relates that, most of the time, "you have no idea what's going on", especially when the day starts: "It's like I always have to style one of my daughters' hair, and it always has to be perfect and it has to be a certain way, and then you need me to put your shoes on... and everyone needs you... It's crazy: cooking, running around. Everything goes wild."

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For Kim Kardashian, who has built not only a television empire but also a fashion and cosmetics empire, as well as being the face of numerous brands, having children and becoming a mother is something completely different: "It's the hardest thing I've ever done. There are nights when I go to bed crying. It's like... Fuck, it's like there's a fucking tornado inside my house." The businesswoman also mentions how hard parenting has become since she does not share it daily with her ex-husband – whom she divorced in 2022 – and, referring to her four children, adds: "You know, each one is in a different mood, each one has his own personality, and many times they fight among themselves and there is no one else there. It's just me, who has to play both good cop and bad cop." Although she admits to the presenter that she now feels "a little firmer" in her role as a mother, she also admits that "motherhood is very hard."

"It's the most rewarding job in the world. It really is. But there is nothing that can prepare you for it. It doesn't matter how much you prepare. You're never going to be prepared," she explains, "but... In the end you do it, and it makes you feel so proud to have achieved it that you can do it one more day." For her, she says, every night is a surprise: "If you suddenly have a tantrum, my mother, everything turns upside down, but that also teaches you many things about yourself that I think anyone who has had children recognizes and discovers that they could not have anticipated." For Kim Kardashian, the confinement during the pandemic was also a great challenge: "There were nights when I realized that I had not washed my hair for days and wore the same dirty pajamas. It was crazy." All in all, she ends on a positive note, stating that she loves her role as a mother and wouldn't trade it for anything: "Only nothing prepares you for it. It's the most challenging yet rewarding job on the planet."

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Kim Kardashian and Kanye West began their relationship in 2012. On June 15, 2013, their first daughter, North West, was born. In 2014, the media couple walked down the aisle at a lavish wedding held in a Florence castle in the presence of about 200 guests. In December 2015, the couple announced the birth of their second child, named Saint West, while acknowledging their desire to continue expanding the family. Three years later, in 2018, came their third daughter, Chicago West, born through surrogacy. Kim Kardashian said at the time that she had opted for that route after doctors warned her of the risks to her health if she became pregnant again. A few months later, in 2019, their fourth child, Psalm West, was born, also through a surrogacy.

In 2021, Kim Kardashian and Kanye West made the decision to divorce after seven years of marriage. The former couple reached an agreement on custody of the four children they share and their property. According to divorce documents, released by People magazine, the former couple has joint physical and legal custody of their four children. "Copaternity is hard," Kardashian explained on CNN's Angie Martinez IRL podcast in December 2022, as she wept as she opened up about her relationship with the rapper and designer. West, who was diagnosed as bipolar years ago, has been at the center of controversy for months for his racist and anti-Semitic comments, which have cost him commercial and creative agreements with international brands such as Adidas or Balenciaga. In addition, West publicly lashed out at Kim Kardashian's first known partner after their breakup, comedian Pete Davidson, until Kim Kardashian herself publicly asked her ex-husband to stop posting threatening messages. Despite everything, Kardashian said in that podcast that she was trying to keep her children out of West's public and media controversies: "My children do not know anything about what happens abroad," she said. The businesswoman said she wanted her children to grow up with the best father's company, as she did: "I had the best memories and the best experience and that's all I want for my kids."