Judith Bauman posted a video to social media on Thursday in which she spoke with an open heart about the terrible days she has been going through since her daughter Karin Bauman passed away two weeks ago, after a long battle with anorexia.
Karin Bauman, z"l, Photo: Efrat Eshel
"I've been through hell, and I'm still going through the greatest hell on earth," Bowman said. "I never imagined it would end like this... I'm barely functioning physiologically. I didn't lose my mind, but this hard stone resists breaking down inside the body and disappearing, and this is accompanied by excruciating pain in the area of the heart, the wounded heart," she burst into tears.
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"I can't imagine being able to continue functioning like this. People tell me, 'Get out, see people,' but I can't. I am currently deeply depressed. I look for her in every corner of the house, see her everywhere. I was used to having coffee with her."
Bowman also addressed the vicious comments she receives online. "Do you understand what a mother's heart is? How can people give a bad reaction to a mother's wounded heart? I'm sure these people weren't mothers or fathers. Only when we are parents do we understand. I had such a hard, very hard week. I get up, go to the kitchen, make me a cup of tea, put (Tabori) on the balcony sitting, it's also very hard for him," she noted.
The funeral of Karin Bauman, photo: Coco
Later, she referred to the treatment Karin received at the hospital. "I won't give up to that doctor. I'll make sure they kick him out of there. Don't want money, don't want anything. I want to feel that someone can ask for forgiveness for what they did. I can't go into details. How she shouted, 'Mom, she's hurting me.' She was not unconscious. She just had a cough and we wanted to avoid it, so we went for antibiotics."
Shimi Tavori at Karin Bauman's funeral, photo: Moshe Ben Simhon
Towards the end, the grieving mother tried to look forward. "I try to ask myself so many times, 'What will happen? You have other children, you have more grandchildren, but can any of them take Karin's place?' I miss her something out of this world," she sobbed. "Pray for me too... That's what feels to me, that I want to be around her.
"I know it's not good and it's hard to say something like that. I'm a strong woman, so I'm trying to overcome in every way. I really hope to overcome... For those who have a bit of heavenly mercy, let them get off the dumb comments. Thank you and good day," she signed.
A spokeswoman for Ichilov Hospital recently told Israel Hayom: "We are sorry to hear about these claims after years of dedicated and compassionate and humane treatment. Thanks to the treatment, Karin was able to survive despite her condition for years and we share their deep sorrow at this difficult time."
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