"If I was ousted from the next planet a year ago, I would have crashed"

Dana Lapidot was disappointed after being ousted from The Next Star last night, but immediately got back on track. In an interview for Walla! Culture is appreciative of why she was ousted ("I was afraid I was sensitive"), tells about the severe depressions in her past ("I never saw daylight. I thought I would never get out of it"), talks about her father's situation and bets who will win the competition

"If I was ousted from the next planet a year ago, I would have crashed"

Many fairies must have opened last night when discussing Lapidot's final ouster from the "Next Star for Eurovision" program (Rainbow 12, another show will be broadcast on Saturday at 21:15). Lapidot herself admits that she too was surprised and disappointed at the moment of her rejection, but quickly recovered and returned to herself. "I'll be honest - it annoys me. As soon as it happened and I didn't get the Say, I went into shock that my performance wasn't that bad. But as I was resurrected at least 20 times during my life, this time, too, I thanked God for giving me that experience, I realized I had a toolbox and knew what I wanted to do now, all for the better.

"Because of what I have been through in my life, I am a very believing person, so I told myself it was probably the stage I had to say goodbye to." It is also good that it came at exactly the stage of the duel and all this stress. My soul is not built for it. I write and compose, my soul is meant to be happy And connecting people. When those steps started, it didn't do me any good. I faced Moran Aharoni, who is not only an amazing singer, I personally love her and become friends. We had a hard time with each other's experience. But after two hours I grabbed a pen, wrote a song, and the next day I was already in the studio recording. If this impeachment happened a year or two before, I would crash. "

Why?

"Because I know my sensitivity and my character. I decided to go into reality only when it was clear that I was capable of dealing with it mentally. I had a crazy life, a real rock 'n' roll life, I took everything to an end, went through years of terrible suffering. And when I decided now to do reality "It was after many years that I refused. I jumped into the water and said 'I do it because I have to get rid of the dread and anxiety of myself.' I wanted to see if I could face such a thing and go back to the front. On TV, I went like a 16-year-old girl, there was no difference between me and the other children there, even though I came seemingly with great experience. I decided to go and that's it. "

And what's next?

"It served me what I wanted. The 'next star' got me the best. I have gigs (the launch of the third album will take place on January 21st in Zappa Tel Aviv), I figured my way out. I took the good things, got rid of the dreadful anxiety from the front. Going out into the world with my songs. "

Judge's stain is on the production of "The Next Star" and on Rainbow 12

"My parents saved my life." Dana Lapidot (Photo: Eden Perez)

Dana Lapidot (Photo: Eden Perez, PR)

The judges' criticism of your performance of the Aerosmith I Don't Want to Miss a Thing song wasn't excessive?

"At that moment, I was so under pressure that I didn't understand. I thought I was really not good, but after watching the performance I realized it wasn't a bad performance. I have no idea what their considerations were to oust me. They may have been afraid I was too sensitive and would not hold this competition "I think a certain decision was made to quit with me, which is fine. Amdorsky told me, 'Dana, you have such a large toolbox, get started.' And he was right. That's what I did. Only good things happened to me."

And maybe you were rejected because you are already a relatively well-known singer?

"It could be a good season, too. They decided to emphasize to young people this year, which is also part of the issue. I received incredible audience love. Maybe if I continued a few more steps, they couldn't say goodbye to me. A new generation, someone to build it. "

Dana Lapidot, 36, was born and raised in Be'er Sheva. In 2001, when she was 18, she worked on a debut album but eventually stole it. Her big break happened in 2006, when she signed to record label Echo Artzi. Two years later, some of her singles came out, which became very big hits, and she was considered a huge musical promise. "I was an innocent girl and a great reverend, and I didn't know anything about the industry. I didn't understand anything about it, and suddenly I read headlines like 'Rita's Heir' and instead of taking it to a good place, I just got into a major depression. I was scared. Going back into my nest, I had hits and wheels, but no dana. I went into depression I thought I would never get out of. I felt in a deep well with a net above me and I can never get out of it. No worse feeling. I hurt myself, suffered from bulimia, anorexia, I stopped Eat until my parents caught it on time and saved my life. "

Were there thoughts of death as well?

"My mom says there were moments I told her to let me in and I want to die. I remember doing everything to finish myself."

What does depression look like everyday? How does it manifest itself?

"You don't have a day. You can't even look outside to see that there is a sun shining. You're sunk in your bubble and you think life is over. I went into hospital, cried out to God, learned to see that there was sun, that morning and night were not the same. How to do basic things, I didn't know what to do with errands. Only at the age of 28 did I start to get back on track and start learning everything as a baby starting to walk. So today I appreciate every little thing in life, even when I spend money at the ATM. "

What mental place are you today?

"In the best place I've ever been. I'm a person who believes I've been saved from death many times and basically understood the injustice I've done to myself. How do I expect people to love me if I don't love myself? I fought a fierce war for everything I did for myself."

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"I got proportions on life thanks to Dad's brain event." Dana Lapidot (screenshot)

Dana Lapidot (Photo: Screenshot)

And just in time for the "next star" photos, your dad had a heart and brain event, breaking the skull. How do you deal with this while filming?

"I got proportions for life. Even the 'next star' suddenly looked like a TV show. I came to the intensive care program after being told I wasn't sure my dad would wake up, and I had to stand and sing the 'tune' I wrote to Adan Ben. And I say to myself, "What a family, what a family." I arrived, I sang this song which is one of my dad's favorite, and what happened on stage is that I prayed to God through the song that will bring me back to my dad. In the end, my dad felt better. A huge miracle. "

And this week you released two new singles.

"When she was impeached, I started working on the songs. This is how" Hours "was created, a new new song that resonates with what's happening today. And there's also" If You Tell Me, "a song I've been waiting for 12 years to bring it out. "I make a way with so many difficulties, I say to myself, 'You have to tell your truth,' because the truth in me is so dominant that if I don't come from it, nobody will believe me."

What are your aspirations for continuing?

"Keep writing and writing because it is the love of my life. Every time my song comes out, there is no greater thrill than that. Both writing for myself and others. I would also like to mentor artists, open a label, and take care of others. I have a therapeutic soul. , Home and children. Complete myself as a woman. "

How have all the shakes you've been through in life changed you?

"I got proportions. I learned to accept myself. I never accepted. I realized that not everyone has to love me. I got a lot of proportions and what changed for me is that I have a very great desire to give myself a lot more to the environment. The young people were crazy and I would always ring after one of the young people was ousted. "

So who do you think will win and represent Israel at Eurovision?

"All the competitors this year are really good. It's hard for me to name a single.

Eliminated but not defeated. Dana Lapidot (Ronen Ackerman)

Dana's Next Star Lapses (Photo: Ronen Ackerman, PR)