Yuval Levy tried today (Tuesday) to articulate on one story on her Instagram account the difficult feelings she has been dealing with lately, since leaving the "Big Brother" house. In a revealing and painful confession, she spoke about the difficulty she experienced after the big exposure, the changes she wanted to make in her life, and the sense of shame that accompanies her decision to return to parts of her past and face them.
Autumn after leaving the "Big Brother" house. Photo: Assaf Hadar (Archive)
"I feel like telling you about what I went through in recent days because it's something significant and extraordinary," Levy wrote. "I'm not used to not sharing, but on the other hand, I'm still trying to digest and understand how I feel about it. Trying to learn what to keep with me and what to take out. Which processes have completed processing and are ready for distribution, and which still need time to digest and consolidate. I experience complicated days. Getting out of a show like Big Brother has steps to recovery, stages of rehabilitation. These are small nuances, but I feel everything. Going out to throw garbage is no longer the same. Walking casually on the street makes me so self-aware, and suddenly the sense of freedom and liberation is limited," she explained.
Yuval Levy, Photo: Reshet 13
Levy then reminded herself that she was in control of her emotions and shared her desire to dig into the depths of her soul and make changes in her life. "It's all in my head, because I have the ability to feel free, but the self-awareness that grows as a result of the increased external gaze creates a new challenge to the sense of liberation. How liberated do I really feel to be? Suddenly, the need for privacy and intimacy increases, especially intimacy with myself. There is a great desire for convergence, for cleaning up what is not suitable. Environments that don't benefit me, people who delay, everything. What are my values? What do I believe? A very great spiritual need arises, a need for precision of the environment for the needs of the soul. For that, you have to know the soul," she stated.
Yuval Levy, Photo: Michael Tumarkin
"I feel like I'm turning to all kinds of corners from the past to get an answer, corners that aren't always so pleasant to return to. Corners I visited before all this happened, that might teach me something, shed light on something. The current corner I turned to is a corner from the past. I didn't tell almost anyone for fear of being judged. Shame. But something in me wanted to understand, maybe to be precise, maybe to search. And I've embarked on a slightly crazy four-day journey that is coming to an end today," she said after posting footage of herself staying at a guest house in the north.
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