In October 2015, Hayden Panettiere's agent said in a statement, "Hayden is seeking professional help at a specialized facility to help with his baby blues."
This intervened following the birth of her only daughter, Kaya Evdokia, the fruit of her union with her former husband, the Ukrainian boxer Wladimir Klitschko.
Seven years later, the actress, known for her role in the cult 2000s series,
Heroes
, has finally come to terms with this very difficult period, between alcohol, drugs and depression.
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“I was on top of the world and I ruined everything”, first blew the 32-year-old actress, during a river interview for the
People
site , Wednesday July 6.
A few months after giving birth, the young woman sinks into a malaise that will last for several years.
"I never felt like I wanted to hurt my child, but I didn't want to spend time with her.
There was just this gray color in my life," she revealed.
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A situation that very quickly got the better of his marriage to the father of his daughter.
"He didn't want to be around me.
I didn't want to be near myself.
But with opiates and alcohol, I did everything to feel happy …”, she explained, before adding: “Then, I felt worse than before.
I was in a cycle of self-destruction.
I had tremors when I woke up and could only function by sipping alcohol.
In 2018, Wladimir Klitschko will go to live with them in Ukraine, where they are still staying.
Hayden Panettiere's condition worsened, the latter then suffered from jaundice and was quickly hospitalized.
"Doctors told me my liver was going to give in," she recalled.
I was no longer a 20-year-old teenager who could bounce back right away."
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The actress confided to have known very young the existence of the opioids.
From the age of 15, when she was playing in the series
Le plus beau des combats
, the latter explains that she began to take, encouraged by her professional entourage.
“They were meant to make me more energetic during interviews.
I had absolutely no idea it was anything bad or that they would have gotten me so addicted.
But I ended up not controlling anything and the older I got, the more drugs and alcohol became essential.
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New start
After this long descent into hell, the actress assured our colleagues to be much better now.
“It hasn't been easy and there have been a lot of ups and downs.
But I don't regret even the ugliest things that happened to me.
I feel incredibly accomplished in what I've done.
And I feel like I have a second chance,” she enthused.
And to conclude: “It's an everyday choice, I always pay attention to myself.
I'm so grateful to still be a part of this world, I'll never take it for granted."
A new breath for the one who played Jessica in the series
Malcolm
, in the casting of the next film
Scream
, whose shooting begins this summer.